This week marks an awareness of my inadequacies. Perhaps all musicians go through feeling as I do. It seems there is so much to learn, so much I am not accomplishing in the moment of performance, or even in daily practice.
I am aware that the little things that seemed impossible, only moments ago, will usually proceed to a better level of competency as the future becomes the present. — provided I expend time working on and confronting the failure.
Failure, it seems, must be the goal to strive for every day. The more failure and the bigger the failures, the more I have to work on and, in the course of so doing, the better I shall become. That is a difficult mind-set to maintain. My ego tells me that failure reflects on my inadequacy and value as a human being. However, there’s another part of “self” — the objective, above the noise of the crowd part — that tells me, what I’m experiencing is the only way to get to what I’m trying to achieve: being an accomplished bassist!
I’d have to ask: Does the need to practice ever stop? I guess it depends on what one means by “practice.” Of one thing I’m certain: I’m going to go fail now, once more.
The interesting phenomena is how we connect with our unseen realities. I commend to you Michael Klinghoffer’s blogging on PERFECTION!